Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense pain behind one eye that lasts for three hours.

About one in 1,000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, severe agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; others have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like many causes, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

The national guidelines need updating to reflect a
Melissa Wilson
Melissa Wilson

Cybersecurity specialist with over a decade of experience in threat detection and system monitoring.

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